Today was somewhat productive. Apparently somehow the shed door broke off the hinges, so hubby went out and bought some new hinges to fix the doors.. looks brand spankin new. YAY!!

He also cleared out the back of the shed where there were a lot tree limbs and nasty stuff, but yet we can’t dump it anywhere out in the woods… someone saw him, called it in and said that if it’s not cleaned up him and FIL will both be getting a ticket… ASSHOLES. OH well.. we will get it figured out, though.

And now it’s 10:38pm and they are all laying on the couch watching Surf’s Up falling asleep.. LOL James is the last to fall but I’ll have to put him in his crib so he WILL go to sleep.

Man what life was like and then what it is.

Connor as a newborn. Was easy for the get go. I knew when to feed him, when he needed changed, and when he needed attention. My first born is growing up way to fast in front of me, pretty soon he’ll be starting preschool… WHOA MOMMA!! I’m in for it now. LOL A pics down memory lane.

3 Days old—there’s a story for this day but I wont go into it.

Almost a wk old

His first hair cut.. LOL I miss that hair but it needed to be cut, it kept getting in his face

A picture of his first year.

His First Bday

His 2nd BDay

and here he is over Memorial Day Wkend

3 year old on my hands!!! WOW TIME FLIES!! Daddy already got him a skateboard w/ helmet and pads, mit and ball, john deere tractor, and a new football. I got him some new bedsheets for now. I will be buying him a few clothes and what not but after that that’s all b.c I know the grandparents will be getting him A LOT of stuff. I just hope to have a few more friends over than last year. I just need to get a few more things prepared and then it’s all set. YAY Almost done. LOL

DH bought us some night stands for our bedroom and here’s what they look like

Makes our bedroom look so much better with those in it.

didn’t take him long to fall asleep riding back home. LOL eating that last of the M and M’s while falling asleep.

He was just so sleepy he didn’t want to share.

Making faces for the camera

Those are so cute and she’s taking them to P’cola with her to share with a few other girls. those are soo cool… I wish my ticket was pulled for that.. but alas it never fails I play for stuff and yet never win… but it’s all good, no hard feelings. Just wish I had some luck.

I’m thankful I have a part time job with my mom.

I’m thankful I have friends that will listen and just be there.

I’m thankful for the ppl in my lives.

I’m thankful I am able to buy my kids food every wk.

I’m thankful I’m not pregnant this year, but would’ve like to have been.

I’m thankful I have two little boys that adore me.

I’m thankful I have a husband that does what he can when he can.

I know I have friends.. but do they really care, do they really want to KNOW me, do they really want to know what I’m think. I feel like the only ppl that REALLY care are my family and 2-3 friends… yes that’s more than I’ve had in a LOOONNNNNGGG TIME.. but it would be nice to know that I have more than 3 friends that I can count on to be there for me when I need to talk to someone. I’ve never pissed off anyone from something I’ve said.. I’ve always been a meek and mild girl and still to this day. WHY OH WHY can’t I be more like some that I admire, those women who just say what’s on their mind and doesn’t care of what other’s think. This wk my feelers are out stretched so far that something so little has made me cry THREE TIMES now. AAHH I know a lot of women go through these at least once a month but this one is really bad for me, I’ve never felt this way even back in high school. I’ve been kinda snappy at my husband and I don’t mean to me, it just comes off that way. AND I’m SORRY!!!

This week is my funk week and it’s really irritating me b.c I’ve never been this bad. I seriously think I need something to help me. I don’ t know how much more or how many more months I can go through this. IT’S JUST NOT ME!!!

The pictures explain it all.